Tuesday, April 30, 2019

CREATIVITY & THE HUMAN CONDITION

Last year around this time, I received an enlightened (and enlightening) comment on one of my G+ posts from fellow photographer Shirlee Severs. Her comment was written in response to my mentioning that I had recently taken a sabbatical from creating any new work, and yet, I had been unable to keep away from continuing with projects I had intended to put off for the foreseeable future. Shirlee's comment was in part a quote from Pearl S. Buck, who wrote:

“The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive...add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create -- so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, his very breath is cut off from him. He must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency he is not really alive unless he is creating." 
  
I found it to be one of the most poignant quotes I had ever read when it comes to the 'human condition' of being one who creates art, regardless of form or genre. This got me to thinking about what it means to be an artist and what motivates the creative process.

I have for some time now considered myself an artist, in part because of the way that I develop my images, and in part because I see my work from the perspective of one who has been involved in the arts for decades as a practitioner of both the aural and visual arts. I will state right up front that rarely are the colors in my images accurate. They are always a direct result of my emotional state of mind and my personal perception of Nature when making and developing the images. As a direct result, they inevitably reveal a sense of my personal aesthetics and provide insight into how I perceive my work.

During the last few years some of my images have been in a category that one could hardly call traditional photography, and one can only call them art because of the color palette that was chosen. Quite often, I will create something that I describe as otherworldly, or on the fringe of reality. I do this because I have a desire to stretch the boundaries of what I consider my own artistic vision within landscape photography, but most of all, because I derive a great deal of pleasure in creating these works. They are unique in that they do not portray reality in any sense of the word, a departure if you will. This in fact makes them works of art. With these works, I am attempting to defy conventionality, though in reality all of my work shares a common thread and vision if you follow my work closely.

I consider myself an artist because I am working in a visual medium. But what does this word 'artist' really mean? What separates me from those who do not use the word, even though they are working in the same genre of photography? This got me to thinking that there may be negative connotations in the use of the word artist. With so many others using the word freely, some with talent and some without, I wonder if the word has not become just a bit hackneyed, or even worse, meaningless.

We are all influenced by external forces and events during our daily lives, the media we are exposed to in all of its various forms, as well as how we perceive our place within the context of  the world. These things, and others, combine to form our perceptions of the world around us. I believe that these forces directly relate to how one lives and perceives one's place in the world. Not everything we see and experience each day contains elements of reality. Taking this one step further on a personal level, it thus becomes easier for me to create works that escape the bounds of realism. Being grounded in reality, the work retains an underlying familiarity that allows most of us to relate even though what lies before us may not appear to be so.

Artists are a receptacle for emotions and all that surrounds us. We receive aural and visual cues from things which may not directly relate to our work, such as music, a dew covered blade of grass that sparkles in sunlight, the way a shadow falls upon a wall, or even the voice of a child singing a nonsensical song. Triggers are everywhere, constantly bombarding us with input that in turn is reflected in our art. How can it not be?

But what about the drive, desire, and need to create? What motivates us to do so? Though these may appear to be difficult questions to answer on the surface, I will attempt to do so. 

For myself, this desire has been with me since childhood. I derive great pleasure from the creation of 'things' that please me. After all, the pleasing of oneself is so much more important than the pleasing of others. It is visually and mentally satisfying on many levels for me. That being said, I believe that it comes from within, from some place deep within both my subconscious and then mingling with my conscious self.  

Humanity has been creating works of art for tens of thousands of years. He has done so for primal reasons and for aesthetic reasons. Both stem from a need to portray the world he sees all around. At some point in time, he became conscious of aesthetics and began to alter his art to please himself. There was no turning back from this point onward. Art was born and we have never looked back.

I believe that we all have this desire to create, it is just that some feel the need to express themselves in a tangible manner that either benefits only themselves or the world. And yet, we all have the capability to be creative. It often involves a simple push from some unknown quarter to provide the spark necessary to begin. Some of us however, seem to be forced to do so by some reason that we do not fully understand, or even comprehend for that matter. We seem to be driven to do so and we cannot live without it. It is something that makes us get up in the morning, or work long into the hours past midnight doing what we love to do.

Moving from one project or piece of work to the next is paramount to the continued existence of the artist. This fire within that drives the creation process appears to be, for the most part, never ending. Only on occasion, when the artist loses this drive is there a separation of the artist from the art.

From personal experience, I can say that there are times like this when the well seems to have run dry, when ideas or direction seem to have disappeared over the edge of the event horizon. As they cross this boundary, the artist is cast adrift for a time, and in rare instances, it becomes permanent.

What I have noticed in my own work is that the trend has been to create more works of 'art' than to do traditional landscapes. I believe that these pieces are the glue that keeps me forging ahead when the doubts creep in that what I am doing has any meaning for both myself and others. Whether this is an experimental phase I have been going through and is possibly a response to other influences, or a conscious decision on my part, or both, I cannot say. What I do know is that I enjoy creating these pieces and will most likely continue to do so in the future.

The real issue for me though is whether or not I am creating a conflict in how others perceive my work. On the one hand they see my traditional works, and on the other, the art pieces. Most photographers I am aware of working in the landscape genre stay within narrowly defined boundaries with all of their work, thus ensuring a continuity with their viewers. The question I am currently pondering is, "Am I alienating viewers who prefer one over the other?" This is a real point of concern for me. And so,the search for answers defining creativity and how it relates to the human condition continues.



Thanks to Shirlee Severs for sharing the great quote from Pearl S. Buck and for inspiring this post. You can find Shirlee's photography at www.shirleesevers.smugmug.com

I would love to hear your views on how you perceive yourself as an artist, if you even consider yourself an artist, and your thoughts on the creative process. I am curious to know if others have experienced this separation of art and artist, and I would be interested to hear from those who have and how it affected their future work.

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Until next time ....

5 comments:

  1. It was a nice unexpected surprise to find your blog post in my mailbox first thing this morning. As I absorbed all your words I realized how little thought I have actually put into my own self worth on this matter. It really isn't something I think about. I've always been a creative person. Making something from myself beginning with nothing. But I guess the true core of that really isn't true unless I'm calling myself nothing. Although I've felt like that quite a bit over the past year. What I do know for sure is that if I'm not physically and emotionally and spiritually balanced my creative side suffers a great deal. Sure I can still take a picture with my camera or draw a picture with a pencil but it isn't the same. Over the past year a lot as thrown me off course and all I can do is take it one breath at a time and hope for better days. Meanwhile I'll keep pretending I'm ok and carry on. What else can I do ? But it's all about finding that part of me that creates from deep within that is priceless to me. Not what others think of me. I don't care at all about that.

    I've always been a fan of your work Thomas. You have a unique fascinating perspective and your work is based on the core of ' you '. There is nothing better than that. The moment you let that go and start thinking about what others think of your work will be the end of your true inner devices. Like throwing a monkey wrench into a fine tuned machine. Don't do that. I see this image you posted here today and I see Thomas Welborn in true raw unaltered form. Priceless !

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    1. Dear Jodi, First off, my sincere apology for not replying to your words sooner. Shortly after writing this post, I began looking at alternative 'blogging' platforms and totally forgot about this one while I experimented. Not much of an excuse, but there it is. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that this was the best format for the moment. Now that I have something new to say, I am back and found your comments. Once again, my apologies.

      I can so relate to much of what your wrote as I myself have had similar doubts over the years, as you well know. Obviously, being an artist is at best, a difficult vocation at times, fraught with all sorts of pitfalls, trials, and tribulations. As you said, all we can do is carry on. The 'human condition' we all live with is just a part of who we are as individuals and those we surround ourselves with. What a long, strange trip it is ....

      It is always a real pleasure hearing from you, and I so very much appreciate your friendship over the years. Please take care of yourself my friend :-)

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    2. I was actually worried that you had fallen off a cliff while photographing a beautiful sunset or something 😊 I’m glad that wasn’t the case and you were just busy doing other things. I get it. Thank you.

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  2. Hi Thomas! I found this, and your photographs! Thanks for including me in the write-up. I hope you are well and happy in these most unusual times!

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    1. Hey Shirlee!

      My apologies for not seeing this sooner but I post here so seldom that I sometimes overlook comments.

      You are most welcome for the mention. Thanks to your quote from Pearl S. Buck, it got me to thinking. I write so little anymore and I have made only a small handful of photos of merit in the last two years. I reached a point where I felt like I had nothing left to say with both words and photographs. Of course, the pandemic did not help either. Maybe I will get back to doing more this year.

      Anyway, it was a real pleasure hearing from you. I hope your photography is going well as we seem to be coming out of the woods with the virus; at least here in the USA.

      Drop me a line every now and then, if you care to do so. I communicate with so few of those from G+ and would like to know what you are doing. Take care of yourself.

      PS You can reach me via email at: hololight@protonmail.com

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